This week the weather was so nice and cool , breezy , rainy off and on .

Then there was PATTY !!!

I have had to deal with my daughter and her SITUATION she has been struggling alot here lately and I just keep paying for to have a phone and when I do see her I give her money for her and junior my grandson I was hoping that by now she would be on her feet and manage to come up with money of her own to get in a place to live so when she has this baby in october she can have a place to bring him home and for junior to have a place to sleep and call home as well as her .

I have talk with her and argued with her about why she hasn’t gotten anywhere , or come up with a solution to getting out of it , I came to the point of putting her in the womens shelter  so she can be off the streets and even though I brought her here for the night .

The father of the child due in october is not working and has not put enough effort in the situation to get them a home this really frustrated me and stressed my nerves hoping this guy ” we will call hoim carlos ” because I put my money towards her to get a place in my name and put my trust and faith into her SITUATION that CARLOS will get a JOB and pay for this apartment I got FOR THEM so my daughter and kids want be lost on the streets .

All week long I have been struggling with frustration , and anger , I been emotional with the fact that I may lose my grandkids and lose my daughter to the legal system and my decsion to not help would forever haunt me .

I grew up a single parent with my kids and they had a single mother to also care for and it was up to me I did have help from people that I worked for but times then were so different I changed ,  my friends changed , I changed my life and things took along long time to get back right in my life and I was alone for a long time it seemed like .

We’ll now alot has been different for me and my kids are grown and they have kids to care for .

I pray that my daughter just gets her life where it should be with a man that can hold his family in place , keep them safe and a home to come home to .

I wish women and men would have this talk about the future before they make commitments to each other and discuss family , money , and love and a WHAT I WANT TO DO LIST before I have a baby , some ppl are ready when they least expect it , if you have a supportive family and friends that are there for you ………in some cases there NOT and they have reasons for it . Anyway I am glad to get some weight off my shoulders knowing that my daughter will have a place to call home and it will give her and carlos a chance to get family life on the roll and take care of there own for a change …….

Growing up is hard to do when your at any age and you always learn everyday .